Saturday, December 16, 2006

ciao for now!

Thanks for visiting...I've moved to www.afrorise.wordpress.com

This has been a wonderful two years but it's time for a change.
My archives aren't there yet -but should be imported to the new site pretty soon.

thanks.

Friday, December 15, 2006

november funeral

I wrote this stream of consciousness before going to a november funeral. I was too emotional that day to post it and it felt quite trite at the time. But in light of the imminent situation in the Horn region, I feel more comfortable doing this now.
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today am going to a funeral, and it's been a sort of day of atonement for me here.
i avoided doing any serious thinking about school matters because i would get caught up and preoccupied with deadlines that, in light of today's circumstances, don't seem all too important anymore. I also don't want to think of a funeral as an obligation or a distraction, people's lives have just completely turned upside down, and I can't use up one afternoon to reflect?

i feel so sad for the family to have to lose a valued, irreplaceable member. life is so long compared to the immediacy of death. i always felt that losing a family member early in life makes people a little fearless. i mean, after death what is there to fear in life? the imagination of losing someone very close to me is so terrorizing that the thoughts have paralysed me sometimes. but if you've had to face this reality, there's little to haunt you, everyday you live remembering what you've lost. i know that fear in my heart is all love, the more you love the more you anticipate and fear its sudden loss, even though death is not a loss of love.

the terror of the unexpected. it's such a bourgoisie, privileged conception it makes me sick. to actually fear terror is a privilege, it means you can think of it, analyse it, imagine it, avoid it. risk management is the bureacratic formulation of avoiding terror. and we have it down to a science. the scientific, calculated management of terror. when you experience terror i'm sure you can't think of it. i'm sure you don't imagine it, or describe it or fear it. terror just is.

what terror is, i don’t to really know. but i know that it takes on so many forms we cannot define it without using a holistic framework - it's physical and psychological, emotional, real or perceived, its short-term, enduring, calculated, pervasive.

to say terror is a group of people who have also lost loved ones just seems wrong intuitively. we are all vulnerable to terror and deep loss and sadness. when some rich people name it 'terrorism' they are just saying, my loss is more important than yours, my loss is greater than yours, my loss is real loss.

every loss is a real loss and i think that we need to stop counting and making it competitive. living is such a humbling experience and it is beautiful sometimes so i think we need to always bemoan the loss of this life because these moments are the only things we know for sure.

in some ways funerals bring people together. i've seen them restore friendships and unite communities. they allow people to express sincerity, depth, understanding, restore solidarity and hope in life. but they are sad days nonetheless and moreover its how we remember people and their loss after the funeral that matters more.

so in a way this entry is a way for me to open up my fear to the world, let it just be, acknowledge it and realize death is just part of life. i think schools should teach students about death; and not just after the fact. I know nothing can prepare you but to talk about how to deal with it, talk about it as part of life, normalize death. it can't be left to faith and family alone, it's too complex an experience.

need peace

Praying for peace tonight...
a cool night with the wind blowing through
thinking of my brothers and sisters who
might lose another or two,
if there's no peace tonight

I don't want to hear the cries from here
of the women, children, men of tears,
if there's no peace anytime tonight

peace of mind
how lucky we are to write about this peace
how lucky we are to dream endlessly
but if there's no peace tonight, I'm done dreaming
i tell you
no more dreaming of regional stability,
regional trade, regional growth, regional love
without peace tonight there is no regional hope.

so let there be peace, as God said on the seventh,
let there be rest, and hope, and hope, and hope
for tomorrow.
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So yes all day I've been thinking about the regional instability in the Horn. I had a talk with a Somali friend of mine and we thought and discussed and hoped together that these men will put down arms, in the name of women and children. Retreat, put down the arms, we beg of the Ethiopian government to get out while we're all still ahead. Yes, I'm still dreaming it seems.

12 December
Islamic courts give Ethiopian troops one week to leave Somalia or face a "major attack". (BBC News)

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Global Voices Summit in New Delhi 2006

Global Voices Summit in Delhi '06

Thursday, December 07, 2006

is talking a form of action?

I’m just getting off of the phone from a very long conversation with a friend. We always have long conversations about what we want to do with our lives, where we see ourselves going, our strengths and weaknesses as people, Our Friendship.
Yes we talk about our friendship a lot. Like a growing plant, we water it, give it fertilizer, open the blinds to let the sun shine in. But sometimes the sun isn’t shining, it’s dark and dry outside, overcast, looking like it’s about to thunder. Yeah, sometimes that’s how we talk about our friendship. We both want things to improve but the question is – does talking help? Is talking a form of action?
Many pragmatic people would say no. Action is action, talking is not action. I’m undecided. If thinking is a form of action (let’s make this an assumption) and talking expresses our thinking then by transitive property, talking is a form of action? Let’s try to use an argument form:

If A(thinking)B (a form of action) & If C(Talking expresses our thinking) -> B (a form of action) if a=b and c=b then c=b

Nope. Doesn’t work, that’s called a tautological argument if I remember correctly. But I could have messed up the argument form, anyone want to help me with this?

But there are two assumptions here. And that is AB that thinking might be a form of action (admittedly the “if” says this is an assumption) and C, “that talking expresses our thinking”. Does it really? There is no such thing as perfect communication. There is no way to express all parts of our thinking in verbs, nouns, adverbs, all so contrived and loaded with meaning – in any case betraying our thoughts to be more or less than they really are. If not more or less; this way or that way, positive or negative, better or worse.

So are we really watering the plant or letting the poor thing dry out? I think communication skills are one of the most important skills a person can develop. To know oneself well and communicate that version as accurately as possible is the best way to assume control over what the person hears and interprets. But that is ceteris parabis, all things being equal, in the ideal scenario the listener does not add or subtract from what they hear, does not interpret more or less given what you have provided them to work with.

Of course this doesn’t happen. We even fool ourselves when talking, nevermind confusing others. It is a hard exercise to communicate well but it is so extremely important to learn to do it better.

(okay, in truth, talking is not a form of action but a form of distraction when you have as many deadlines as I have now.)

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

what kind of soul are you?

You Are an Old Soul

You are an experienced soul who appreciates tradition.
Mellow and wise, you like to be with others but also to be alone.
Down to earth, you are sensible and impatient.
A creature of habit, it takes you a while to warm up to new people.

You hate injustice, and you're very protective of family and friends
A bit demanding, you expect proper behavior from others.
Extremely independent you don't mind living or being alone.
But when you find love, you tend to want marriage right away.

Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul and Visionary Soul

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

11 names

Can you name 11 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 11 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first... No cheating!

1. manal
2. kesha
3. lem
4. soph
5. senu
6. the never ending lover boy
7. far
8. adam
9. the never beginning lover boy
10. mom
11. mike

How did you meet 10?
well I could start at conception, but that would be too much. God was our matchmaker, and I thank him for that everyday. I think we really met for the first time when she started to realize I could think and act for myself and did a pretty good job. we really met when she saw how much I really liked and respected her as a person...probably when I could express it at 10 years old or so.

What would you do if u had never met 6?
lol, wow, did I really get this question for #6? it's like the question that i've always wondered about. had I never met 6 I would have probably not realized how deep my heart is, and would have never learned my own frightening capacity to give, forgive, accommodate, understand, be patient, and basically just love...
...but maybe I would have also had more time to find another kind of love.

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
yes, and she looks beautiful doing it.

What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
I would tell #2 to get out, FAST! Then I would secretly admire them for finding in each other the beautiful qualities I see in each of them. Then I would cry and probably sabotage any attempts to marry.

Think 1 is handsome?
yes, she has a very handsome mind! she's female, so calling her mind handsome expresses how progressive her thinking really is, breaking down boundaries, urging change, indifferent to obstacles...

Tell me something about number 11.
Loving younger brother. The joy of my heart, gives the best hugs and never forgets who he is.

How did you know 8?
Lol. How did I know 8. 8, why don't you tell them?

What's 7's favourite color?
I think Green, but she's weird.

What would you do if 2 confessed he/she liked you?
I'd say, uhhh, aren't you already dating #6???

Fact about 9.
Just the man of my dreams in a nutshell.

Who is 6 going out with?
um, everyone, that's the problem.

Who is number 5 to you?
my best friend and sister.

Would you ever live with 11?
I did for many years and they were wonderful except he never makes his own dinner...but he's a great kid.

Is 2 single?
Why do you care so much about 2 man??

How much does 3 mean to you?
A lot.

What do you think about 1?
Can't really think about those you understand. Number 1 is just number 1...

What's the best thing about number 8?
The best thing about number 8 is his curiosity and open-mindedness.

What do you dislike about number 10?
I dislike that I can't see her everyday.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Abraham Afewerki

Friday, November 10, 2006

Zap Mama - Ancestry in Progress

Rasha - From Sudan to Spain




May I suggest?: 'Azara Al Hey' [Girls of the Quarter] & 'Al Sheikh Seiyaro' [The Sheikh is Coming].

Sara Tavares - Balance

Thursday, October 26, 2006

"states of exception"

between law and politics
there is truth

in the last breath of violence
cloaked as justice,
One Glorified Terror,
punishing many forms of liberation

what’s raw in this world is between that
“legal form which can have no legal form”
in the lawless space of camps between
here and there, good and bad, white and black

but there is neutral,
something watches and smiles
something watches and cries
to see this life so badly beaten down
so raw and bare, Homo Sacer,
bare life in theory?

in spite of the French Revolution(s)
this state is unrecognizable.

how can democracies have violence
how can violence be democratic

whats more raw in this world
in time we will find
between our hearts and our minds.

See Giorgio Agamben's "State of Exception" (2003).

Monday, October 16, 2006

what it takes

some people just have what it takes
to make you write a line or two.
whether or not we're excited by ideas
they will seem redundant
without bright people to view.

It's the need for recognition,
self-consciousness beyond the self,
realization - without the help -
of others.

yet, in contradiction, here I sit,
writing a bit,
due to simple request
from you!

friends, this is what it takes,
slight motivation,
some inspiration,
soft liberation,
from the everyday.

readers, this is what it takes,
to give me a break
from the lie
of self-conscious "I"
to the key -
a responsive "We"

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"We therefore I am" (Mbeti, African philosopher)